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My Name is Thomas

My name is Thomas
And I want so much
I need to know you
I need to feel your touch

                (Choir) Follow your faith and there I’ll be
                I can’t find it
                (Choir) Take of my love and you’ll be free
                I can’t feel it
                I really need to know

What is a good man?
What does a good man do?
Why am I searching
When I should know the truth

                (Choir) Open your heart and let me in
                I can’t do it
                (Choir) Trust in the word and hear again
                I can’t hear it
                I really need to know

Bridge

                And everyday
                I pray with my heart
                I see the design
                In each little part
                Bathed in the light
                Safe in your hands
                I give you my vow
                You give me the chance

Instrumental verse

(Thomas puts on his clerical collar)

Bridge

                All of my life
                I knew who I was
                I traveled the path
                That was so obvious
Wrapped in your arms
                I drank from the cup
                I swore on my soul
                It would be enough

Today is a new day
Another day to exist
Why am I living
Is there a meaning I’ve missed?

(Choir) Blessed are they that have not seen
I can’t see it
                (Choir) Yet in their hearts they still believe
                Why believe it
                What has gone wrong with me

My name is Thomas
And I want so much

Fooled So Bad

I’ve been told maybe more than I need
I got a face only mom could love
Of all the things I had to take to heart
I went and picked what would tear me up
Everyone’s got a cross to bear
They made me feel that I was theirs

They didn’t think I’d amount to much
I’d been corrupted by my education
All the things that I’d want to be
They’d say it’s all my imagination
But somehow I found someone to believe
And somehow I hope she never will see

(Chorus)
I got her fooled so bad
Into loving someone just like me
I got her fooled so bad
Into loving someone just like me

Never did nothing good enough
They never gave me satisfaction
They didn’t ask me what I want
They didn’t look for my reaction
And they knew that she wasn’t for me
Well it may be true, but she’s what I need

Repeat (Chorus)

(Bridge)
I heard that stuff almost everyday
You’re nothing, it’s always gonna be that way
Then something inside just rises up
You need to feel that touch

I thought about the easy way out
I thought about my situation
They believed that I had to be saved
And I believed in my own damnation
You can’t believe everything that you hear
There always was a reason to care

Repeat (Chorus)

I Would Do Anything

I would do anything for You
Or even more if You want that too
Spend all my time
To be with You
I would do anything
I would do anything for You
Give up my job if You want me to
Not pay my bills
To give to You
I would do anything, for You dear

People:
Chorus:
You tell me I'm the lucky one, it's just
One of Your promises
You tell me You’re the only one, it's just
One of Your promises

Thomas:
I would do anything for You
Give up my home if You want me to
Live more or less
Just for You
I would do anything, for You dear

(repeat Chorus)

Thomas & People:
I would do anything for You
Climb every hill and mountain too
Nothing's too small
I wouldn't do
I would do anything

Thomas:
I would do anything for You
Change all my ways, if You want me to
Give up my life
Just for You
Thomas & People:
I would do anything, for You dear
I would do anything, for You dear

(As everyone sings along with the ending crescendo, they leave the church; Thomas greets his parents and John.)

Brain Dead*

You wonder why you'll never get respected
You prove it every single time you speak
Maybe you should have your brain inspected
You're down a quart have someone plug that leak
Your demeanor leaves a lot to be desired
It's not surprising just how low it steeps
The kind of fool that always shoots their mouth off
The kind that never looks before they leap

BRAIN DEAD BRAIN DEAD

So who or what's it gonna be tomorrow
You tear down with your stunted point of view
You're a toxic waste that's best to be avoided
A black hole spinning in the cosmic stew
So pardon me I've got just one suggestion
I'm sorry if it seems a little crass
But someone has to be a voice of reason
Get a grip and pull your head out of your ass

BRAIN DEAD BRAIN DEAD
BRAIN DEAD BRAIN DEAD

Scene 5: They arrive at Mom & Dad’s house. Everyone says their piece, around the dining room table, but no one seems to hear each other, except for John.

Thomas: (Spoken) Upon learning of John’s girlfriend’s pregnancy, mom and dad basically disowned him. They also believed that we should marry our “own kind” and Mary was not what the good Lord or they were expecting. Somehow, all of our beliefs take on a sacred status, even the ones we create. I’ve tried to explain otherwise to them, but basically, our family exploded.

Bless This Mess

I am a man, I got me a wife
I raise up my sons, I live me a life
And I work every day, and I work every night
But she don’t understand, and the kids only fight

My home is my castle
And I am its king
But you think you know something
And you don’t know a thing
It was just for the children
We stayed until the end
Can this be the plan?

(Chorus)
Bless this mess, bless this mess, bless this mess, bless this mess

Mom:
I am the wife, the mother of the boys
My heart is a stone, my words only noise
And I give up my time, like I give up my life
To get nothing back, it’s just a sacrifice
Every day is a battle
Every day is the same
If they knew what I was feeling
If they only knew the pain
No thanks from the children
It should happen to them
Can this be the plan?

(Chorus)
Bless this mess, bless this mess, bless this mess, bless this mess

(Bridge)
Don’t say that it don’t mean a thing
There must be reward in the end
I know that we need to believe
But why is it always me?

Thomas:
I am a son; I do what I’m told
And the sins of the past, to the young from the old
And I thought that our home, was more than a show
But the more that I learn, the less that I know
They care about appearance, don’t care about fact
They hide their desperation, don’t talk about that
Now my brother’s a stranger that I don’t understand
Can this be the plan?

(Chorus)
Bless this mess, bless this mess, bless this mess, bless this mess… (vamp and out)

You Don’t Know Me

Take a look at my face
And see what you want to
It must be some kind of sacred conceit
That makes you think I should be like you
I don’t believe in what you do
I don’t believe you want to know the truth
I’m so insecure
But you know what you want to
It must be some kind of sacred disease
That makes you think someone’s blessing you
I don’t believe you know what to do
I don’t believe you really have a clue

Chorus:
And you don’t know me, you don’t know me
You don’t know me, you don’t know me

You want save my life
And love me to death
I’d like to give you my thanks for the prayer
But I’d sooner choke on my last breath
I don’t believe in your way to live
I don’t believe there’s something to forgive

(Chorus)

Bridge:
You don’t know me
You want to run my life
You don’t know me
You want to twist the knife
You don’t know me
I don’t get a chance
You don’t know me
Well you can kiss my ass

You can’t look at my heart
You don’t even want to
You just say that I’m living a lie
Just because I don’t share your truth
You have no need to understand me
You have no need to live and let me be

Chorus:
And you don’t know me, you don’t know me
You don’t know me, you don’t know me
You don’t hear me, you don’t see me
You don’t care for me, you don’t help me
You don’t feel me, you don’t talk to me
You don’t love me; you don’t know me…………… (off my knees at last)

Drunk***

May you always hear the footsteps
May you live through your bad trips
May you always be disgusting with a beer at your lips
May you always wear leather jackets
May you always be a punk
And may you stay forever drunk

May you always be drinking
May you vomit every night
May you never be sober and never have sight
May you always be staggering
May you stink like a skunk
And may you stay forever drunk

Everyone except Thomas:
                Chorus:
                Forever drunk, forever drunk
                May you stay forever drunk

May you curse like a sailor
May you always find a drink
May you beg, borrow or steal for it and not care what others think
May you fight people in barrooms
May you sleep in a trunk
And may you stay forever drunk

                Bridge:
                Livin' in a funk, every day and month
                You never thunk, that's what you'd become
                So raise a glass, to a self-made man
                Every day and month, forever drunk

May your liver get cirrhosis
May all your brain cells die
May you drink away your problems and not have the sense to cry
May your heart always be broken
May your ships always be sunk
And may you stay forever drunk
May you live in the Bowery
May you eat from garbage cans
May you always be jobless and a pawn in other people’s hands

John:
May you share a pint with Satan
May you live like a monk
May you stay forever drunk

Everyone except Thomas:
                Chorus:
                Forever drunk, forever drunk
                May you stay forever drunk, forever drunk
                May you stay forever drunk

No Faith

People say I seem very cold
Ignore the young don't respect the old
I just don't see all the good things that they do
I wonder who it was invented hate
You want respect, well you have to wait
You know you have to give the devil his due
I don't care if you close your eyes
Well I'm awake
I've got no faith in you

Hey preacher well you like to sermonize
And if it's fun you'll only criticize
You tell me all the things that I can't do
But don't you know you're a hypocrite
All the things you say you I gotta quit
We all know that you gotta be doin' it too
So send your money for you to keep
Go to hell
I've got no faith in you

Everyone except Thomas:
Chorus
Human race, big disgrace, taught to hate, discriminate
Just a waste, alienate, getting late, got no faith
Got no faith in you

Everyone loves to wave the flag
You're oh so proud and you like to brag
I don't know what it is you have to prove
Where you're born is just random chance
The way you talk and the way you dance
And in a war you'll do what you're told to do
You think that's loyal, you think that's cool
Go kill yourself
I've got no faith in you

(repeat Chorus)

Well I'm confused over all your gods
There's one for each and they're all at odds
Everyone has got there point of view
I don't care about my heritage
I don't care about no sacrilege
I never claimed that I knew the truth

Can't be sure of anything
But that's all right
There's still no faith in you
Got no faith in you
Got no faith in you
Got no faith in you

I Just Want to Look at You (This song is on the “mostly True Stories CD due to lack of space on the “My Name is Thomas” CD)
I just want to look at you
I just want to look at you
The hair around your shoulders
The fullness of your lips
The color of your body
The way you move your hips

Mary (To John):
I just want to hold you near
I just want to hold you near
I feel your arms around me
You pressed against my chest
The rhythm of your heartbeat
The warmness of your breath

(Chorus)
I don’t know
What brought us together
I just know how I feel
I just know that it’s real
Everyday we’d search for the answer
But this is what it meant
It feels so innocent

(Bridge)
Can’t give you Paradise
Can’t ask you to believe
We only have this life
And everything will die

All the rest’s a lie
I just want to sleep with you
I just want to sleep with you
To know that you’re beside me
And know that you are there
To wake with you each morning
Each moment that we share

(Chorus)
I don’t know
What brought us together
I just know how I feel
I just know that it’s real
Everyday we’d search for the answer
But this is what it meant
It feels so innocent
I just want to look at you.

Kill Yourself*

If you’re lost in despair and you’ve given up hope
You can solve your little problem with a chair and some rope
Go on and kill yourself if you got nothin’ else to live for
Go on and kill yourself
You’ve been in nothin’ but trouble since the day you arrived
You brain was deceased but your body survived
Go on and kill yourself instead of doin’ harm to others
Go on and kill yourself

Well you could jump off a bridge or fall on a knife
There’s a million ways to do it end your pitiful life
Go on and kill yourself yeah go on and kill yourself
It’s sure to cure your strange behavior
Go on and kill yourself

You’ve been to see the doctor, you’ve been to see a priest
But neither one could help you at all to say the least
Your common sense is lacking, your soul black as pitch
Got a list of some suggestions if you ever get the itch
To kill yourself yeah go on and kill yourself
If you’re immune to acting human go on and kill yourself

For your method of choice, you know I couldn’t care less
Just take the time and effort and don’t leave a mess
When you kill yourself why don’t you do the world a favor
Go on and kill yourself

Well you could pop in some pills they say the third rail’s a snap
You can choose a custom coffin for your long dirt nap
Go on and kill yourself yeah go on and kill yourself
Why don’t you do the world a favor go on and kill yourself

‘Cause you’ve been wearin’ out your welcome on everyone you know
With your nasty little habits and now it’s time to go
Hope to see you in the obits with a headline at the top
Body found slain result of 12-gauge lollipop
So kill yourself yeah go on and kill yourself
Why don’t you do us all a favor go on and kill yourself

Go on and do it, go on and do it, yeah there’s nothin’ to it
Just go on and do it, why don’t you do the world a favor
Go on and kill yourself
Everybody
Do it (repeat)
Why don’t you do the world a favor
Go on and kill yourself

I’m So Scared

I'm so scared
I'm so scared
Feel like a child that's lost its mother
A bomb underground
A building comes down
People die as we watch and wonder
You know that night
When I turned out the light
Just had to curse these human hands

We walk down the street
Our eyes never meet
Feel like there's battle lines between us
We don't wanna know
We say it isn't so
Just wanna leave it all to Jesus
And every day
While believers pray
We can do what praying can't

And the word of god
To the sheep in the fold
The original sin
To the young from the old

                Bridge:
                Now I lay him down to sleep
                Now I lay him down
                I will give my love to keep
                I will give my love
                And I learn every day
                He shows me the way
                Though the sky's full of rain
                It's a beautiful day
                Surrounded by hate
                And the blindness of faith
                How do I let him know?
                Now I lay him down to sleep
                Now I lay him down

I'm so scared
I'm so scared
Feel like a child that's lost its mother
Living lives all alone
Always fear the unknown
Never try to reach each other
And every day
While believers pray
The world is in our hands

And the word of god
To the sheep in the fold
The original sin
To the young from the old
The word of god
To the sheep in the fold
The original sin
To the young from the old

I Envy the Dead*

I envy the dead
They don’t have to get up in the morning
|I envy the dead
Stay dry outside in the rain when it’s pouring
I envy the dead
No need to worry ‘bout war or hate
Don’t even think about losin’ weight
Resting in peace wouldn’t that be great oh yeah

I envy the dead
Built in excuse for the person who’s lazy
I envy the dead
Your only job would be pushing up daisies
I envy the dead
Won’t be a victim of budget cuts
Sneak up on Hitler kick him in his nuts
don’t have to deal with those ifs, ands or buts no more

I envy the dead
Just think of all the walls you could walk through
I envy the dead
Just think of all the souls you could talk to
I envy the dead

Bridge:

Just a spirit out floatin’ free
Nobody nothin’ gonna hinder me
Cash in my chips after the battles been fought
I’ll kick this bucket on this farm I bought
No stupid moron gonna make my blood boil
I long to shuffle off this mortal coil
Dearly departed guess that’s what they’ll say
As they toss some flowers on my grave
Such as shame he had to pass away so young

I envy the dead
Unlocked are secrets that life has kept hidden
|I envy the dead
They’ve got the answers to questions forbidden
I envy the dead
But what if bein’ dead ain’t so great
I’ll have to make do in this solid state
Until I’m chosen by the hand of fate oh well

I envy the dead
They don’t have to get up in the morning
I envy the dead

Nothing

Every night I lie awake
I think about my next mistake
Do you wonder about it all?
Or does it matter anymore
You want an answer, you want the world
You want it faster, you want the world
I get the feeling that you don’t know
Why you’re going the way you go

Pre-chorus
You see it
You touch it
You need it
You take it
You have it
You use it
You got it
All you’ve got is nothing

Chorus
Without love is nothing
Besides love is nothing
After love is nothing

You’re the greatest, you’re even more
You got the biggest I ever saw
You got the fire, you’re gonna burn
You’re just a liar, you never learn

Pre-chorus
You say it
You dream it
You find it
You believe it
You feel it
You know it
You are it
All you are is … nothing

I don’t have a single prayer
I don’t have a penny’s share
You think you’ve got the only truth
You think you got the only proof

God Shaped Hole

There’s a God shaped hole in my heart
There’s a God shaped hole in my heart
I can’t face myself
I got no one else
There’s a God shaped hole in my heart
There’s a God shaped hole in my head
There’s a God shaped hole in my head
What I once believed
I was self-deceived
There’s a God shaped hole in my head

Bridge
I recall now, the way it used to be
I heard the words they would flow right through me
But now I listen and I can’t drink it up
Where’s the hand that I need to touch

There’s a God shaped hole in my life
There’s a God shaped hole in my life
There’s no place to hide
There’s no reason why
There’s a God shaped hole in my life

Bridge
I recall now, the way it used to be
I heard the words they would flow right through me
But now I listen and I can’t drink it up
Where’s the hand that I need to touch

God shaped hole in the world
There’s a God shaped hole in the world
We believe our lies
Everybody dies
There’s a God shaped hole in the world
God shaped hole, God shaped hole

Magic Butt**

Dearly beloved, we are gathered here today
To pay our last respects to a soul that lost its way
It's my solemn duty to inform you of the fact
He wasn't very pious, there's no denying that
Though everyone comes knocking, very few will make the cut
If you want to get to heaven, you got to kiss the Magic Butt

It saddens me to say this, he doesn't have a prayer
He didn't go to service, he didn't really care
He asked too many questions, his faith was just a joke
He never repented, he doesn't have a hope
He never did get married, he was living with a slut
He’s on his way but not to heaven, he didn’t kiss the Magic Butt

Bridge
Kiss the Magic Butt today
It will wash your sins away
It's the only one that works
All the rest will make it worse

You can be a killer and eat your victims too
No matter what your sin is, he’ll turn a cheek for you
Save a million people with a cure for a disease
Won't get you through the Pearly Gates unless you're on your knees
This is what He told me, I didn't make it up
If you want to get to heaven, you got to kiss the Magic Butt

instrumental interlude

Everyone except Thomas:
Bridge 2
Save me, save me, save me, save me...

Now dearly beloved, as we lay his soul to rest
We can learn from his mistakes and hope for the best
He wasn't very moral, I feel compelled to say
And rumors were in the air, some friends of his were gay
Now before I start forgetting, where's my check, now is it cut?
If you want to get to heaven, if you want to get to heaven, if you want to get to heaven
You got to kiss the Magic Butt

This Is Not the Way of Love

This is not the way of reason
This is not the way of love
We lay down in beds of sorrow
This is not the way of love
This not the world we're given
This is not the way to be
We were born as helpless brothers
This is not the way to be

No more fighting
No more lying
No more hurting
Over some foolish pride
No more faking
No more debating
No more waiting
It's time that we tried

This is not the way he taught us
He would turn the other cheek
You don’t need to be reborn
You don’t need to even believe

No more bombings
No more burnings
No more killing
'Cause our country is right
No more blind hate
No more blind ways
No more blind faith
That God's on our side

(People begin to leave and are gone by the end of this song.)

We need caring
We need giving
We need searching
All of the time
We need thinking
We need asking
We need reaching
To open our minds

This is not the way of reason
This is not the way of love
We lay down in beds of sorrow
This is not the way of love, this is not the way of love

Last Prayer

Our father who art in heaven
Hallowed be thy name
I closed my eyes, I closed my ears,
I closed my brain
From the moment I could talk
I prayed that I be saved
I came to have regret
For sins I can't explain
And I learned just what to say
And I learned just how to act
And I learned that the truth
Isn't altered by fact

And then I learned that there was us
And I learned that there was them
And I learned that we were the ones
Who were blessed, they were condemned

Chorus

                This is my last prayer
                This is my last prayer
                Off my knees at last

And I wondered is there something wrong
When I feel the way I do
Do I think too much?
Is my faith not true?
And he just wasn't there
When I looked up to the sky
There was no holy ghost
When I looked deep inside

repeat Chorus

I Don’t Know Why

I don’t know why
I love you like I do
I don’t know why
I love you like I do
There is no past
No destiny
There’s just the time
When you’re with me

I don’t know why
I feel the way I feel
I don’t know why
I feel the way I feel
There is no path
No place to go
There’s just your touch
That’s all I know

I don’t know why
I love you like I do
I don’t know why
I just do

Love Is the Only Priest

You may ask, why do we even bother
Here today, then we’re gone into the dust
You say sense can’t be made of it
You know the truth, it doesn’t fit
The answer’s just too rough

Every day, while the world is getting harder
Don’t you wait for that help from up above
Don’t need to dream or make believe
You’re really here right next to me
It should be just enough

                Chorus:
                Happiness is the only heaven
                Reasoning is the only light we need
                Justice is the only worship
                And love is the only priest

There’s no plan with your name upon it
There’s no road that will take you to the stars
You can miss your date with destiny
There is no sacred guarantee
But there’s something that is ours

                Chorus:
                Happiness is the only heaven
                Reasoning is the only light we need
                Justice is the only worship
                And love is the only priest

                Bridge:
                Don’t be late
                Or you’ll miss your chance
                It only comes
                Every day we wake up

                Chorus:
                Happiness is the only heaven
                Reasoning is the only light we need
                Justice is the only worship
                And love is the only priest

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